tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6063366188562624992024-03-14T00:59:58.482-07:00Okii Kuchi -- Big MouthThis is one of the few things I know how to say in Japanese, and it describes me perfectly.
This blog is about my thoughts, feelings, hopes, etc. Basically anything I don't feel comfortable saying out loud. Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.comBlogger33125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-1025068185474359102015-02-06T21:26:00.002-08:002015-02-06T21:26:43.199-08:00Spooky Mormon Hell DreamsI often have very vivid dreams, and when I wake up they stick with me through the rest of the day. It doesn't happen all the time, but I frequently find myself thinking about my dreams. There are particular dreams that I have over and over, the typical "naked in public", forgot my shoes, etc. One that I often have is that I go back to this store where I used to work and my manager comes up to me Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-87307120769222057712015-02-01T18:55:00.001-08:002015-02-01T18:55:25.589-08:00All my exes live in TexasActually he lives in Seattle. Here's the thing, I'm going to Seattle in a few weeks (over Valentine's Day weekend actually). Other than the airport, I haven't been to Seattle in a few years. The last time I was there I posted pics on Facebook about my trip, and the day I returned he messaged me on Facebook and asked if I was still in town. He wanted to get together. I was already home, so we Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-91028621120131331992015-01-12T23:07:00.002-08:002015-01-12T23:07:45.966-08:00Oh no she didn't! She did...Ok, so I've gone an entire week without my meds, and yeah, the withdrawal has been getting worse: insomnia, upset stomach, mood swings. Oh the joys! So today I had a minor crisis at work. I said something innocently to a higher up and realized that what I said is going to make it back to my evil boss. What did I say? Are you ready...it's awful. I was asked about my supervisor. When I responded Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-18980741359597657902015-01-09T23:47:00.002-08:002015-01-09T23:47:40.358-08:00Emotions are IllogicalOn Monday I got up as normal, did my morning routine, and when I went to take my morning pills (allergies and my anti-depressant), I realized that I did not have any more of my anti-depressants. (I call them my crazy pills.) Normally my prescriptions are automatically refilled via my online pharmacy, but I didn't have any more. I made a mental note to check on my refills when I got to work. Well,Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-32605976566825710752015-01-01T23:13:00.004-08:002015-01-01T23:13:57.374-08:00Retail TherapyThere are some people I know who turn to retail therapy when they're feeling down or if they just need a pick-me-up. What do I do? I do Delta Air Lines therapy! I bought tickets for Peru (to see Machu Picchu) in April and then for Hawaii in May for my cousin's high school graduation luau. "Oh my word, how much did you spend?", you might ask. How about a total of $85.64 for business class? Pretty Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-42888837853065410672014-12-29T18:06:00.001-08:002014-12-29T18:06:17.962-08:00Get a life!
Wow...I'm still reeling from what just happened at work today. Everything started off fine. It was actually a slow, uneventful day. That's because as a central office administrator, I had to work today even though all of our schools are closed for winter break. No phone calls, hardly any e-mails, no meetings, really a bunch of nothing. I was able to get caught up on some paperwork. About 15 Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-33352144053316792832014-12-14T18:29:00.001-08:002014-12-14T18:29:29.811-08:00If only...I just wish I could walk into work tomorrow and quit. I really do. I'm so done with that place. Six years of hard work, very little recognition, lots of stress, little to no support. Why do I keep going? Oh yeah, I have to pay my bills...
Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-40871873341494980452014-11-02T19:05:00.000-08:002014-11-02T19:05:12.665-08:00No work NovemberI cannot believe how busy this month is going to be. I will basically be in the office for all of five days between now and the end of the month. It will all be work-related business that keeps me out of the office (except for Thanksgiving) but even so, not being in the office means that those little things I take care of on a daily basis are going to pile up.
Tomorrow is a Staff Development DayJameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-51995352943822427622014-11-01T01:56:00.000-07:002014-11-01T01:56:13.792-07:00What's that in your eye?A former co-worker of mine (I'll call her Jan) posted this on Facebook earlier today:
Several of her other Facebook friends wrote comments like: "Good riddance", "Don't lose sleep over that one", or "She's not worth being friends with."
I wanted to post a comment to her telling her that she was being a judgmental biotch, but I refrained. I wanted to tell her that she's teaching her children Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-4932732947942943102014-10-08T22:59:00.004-07:002014-10-08T22:59:44.702-07:00Walking a mile in someone else's shoes...Today has been an interesting day for me. I've had two very profound experiences that have hammered home the often repeated phrase about how we need to walk a mile in someone else's shoes before we judge another person or before we can truly say we understand them.
This is really one of my core beliefs. I really do try to understand other people and their motives. I am often quick to judge, but Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-12146000806312252442014-09-14T00:33:00.005-07:002014-09-14T00:33:51.270-07:00My First Affirmation ConferenceSeveral weeks ago I was up late, couldn't sleep, so I got on the computer. No, I was not looking for porn. I was just surfing the Web. Every now and then I check out the Affirmation page. Affirmation has always been interesting to me. I remember when I first came out that I was very skeptical of them. I was afraid to become involved with any group or organization that would lead me astray, and I Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-7615919488716563242014-08-24T00:20:00.003-07:002014-08-24T00:20:55.100-07:00The Giver...Tonight I went to see the movie The Giver. I'll admit right away that the main reason I went was because Brenton Thwaites is just so cute, but in the end it turned out to be one of those movies that left me very pensive. I've been thinking about it for the last couple of hours since I got home and decided that I should write about what I learned. SPOILER ALERT--I'm going to talk about what Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-75403379009720795302014-06-29T20:56:00.001-07:002014-06-29T20:56:51.585-07:00Don't poke the sea anemone...When I was in third to fifth grade, my family was living on a U.S. Air Force base in Okinawa, Japan. On a rare occasion, my dad took the family to some tide pools. I don't remember exactly why this discussion came up, but at one point, my dad showed us some sea anemone. He explained to us that they are very sensitive creatures, and if you poke one with a stick, they would pull their Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-79288573500909630882014-06-08T22:22:00.002-07:002014-06-08T22:27:14.018-07:00If/ThenIf you read my last post, you'll remember that I am in New York for the next few days on a mini pre-birthday vacation. I love coming here, it makes me feel so grown up to be in such a large, busy city (even though I'm almost 44). Most of all, I love coming to see the shows...yes, I am not ashamed to say that I'm a big old theatre queen! This afternoon before the Tony Awards I had the chance to Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-85081455771957529142014-06-06T02:01:00.001-07:002014-06-06T02:01:05.142-07:00"Start spreading the news..."Yep, that's right, I'm leaving today! I'm gonna be a part of New York, NY for the next five days as a birthday gift to myself (and my creditors). I am constantly drawn to New York and the theatre district.
Yes, yes...I know I'm gay. But that's not it. I am obsessed with theatre because I can't do any of it. I can't act, can't sing, can't dance, etc. I just sit in these shows in awe of the Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-80733265299317162952014-05-30T22:37:00.001-07:002014-05-30T22:37:28.903-07:00Defending the Indefensible?I came to the conclusion the other day that I want to start seeing a therapist. I haven't ever gone to one before, unless you count the last four months of my mission. To make a long story short, my mission president almost pushed me over the edge, and I asked to go see a counselor. He set me up with someone from LDS Social Services. Being that I was still naive in how things work, and due to theJameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-667511638148730462014-05-18T22:00:00.002-07:002014-05-18T22:00:33.223-07:00Nice to meet you (again)?Last week I had quite the interesting experience. I was attending a conference for work in Los Angeles, and as a part of a program that we are involved in, I had a required meeting to attend. At the beginning of the meeting we all had to stand up and introduce ourselves and say where we worked. During the introductions, one of the people who stood up was a principal from a school in my old Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-62907855102072340062014-03-23T02:44:00.001-07:002014-03-23T02:44:36.081-07:00And the winner is...not you!I'm certain that I'm not the only person in the entire world who irrationally gets angry at people, right? Please tell me I'm right...
So this week I received an e-mail from one of the professional organization that I'm a member of informing me that I was not selected for an award. I've been a member of this organization for 17 years, and I served on the board of directors for ten years. I was Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-54823620952679706962013-12-31T15:34:00.002-08:002013-12-31T15:34:53.617-08:00¡Feliz año nuevo! Adiós 2013.Another year passed, another year older...ugh! lol
This has been a busy year for me. When I look back over my calendar I realize that I've done a LOT of traveling this year. Most of it was work related, but I did manage to have some personal travel time. I spent a week in London for vacation in March. Then in April I went to Boston (twice) for meetings. The two trips were just before and after Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-14762014931599498542013-12-28T01:29:00.002-08:002013-12-28T21:43:56.913-08:00NEWS FLASH: Pigs Fly, There are people Ice Skating in Hell, Gay are Getting Married in Utah!
Well, this has been an interesting week with all of the gay marriage stuff going on in Utah. I have a few friends who got married. One couple that I worked with years ago, have been together for 15 years. It is great that they are now a legal family. They adopted a little girl back in 2002. I'm so happy for them. Another former co-worker of mine married her partner the day after they had Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-22731921921415368342013-12-03T11:53:00.001-08:002013-12-03T11:53:18.124-08:00Holy Long Time, No See Batman!Wow, it's been MONTHS since I last posted anything! I'm sitting here at work bored to death...not because I don't have anything to do, I just don't have anything that I want to do. I'm excited about my new house. I signed all of the paperwork yesterday, and I'm just waiting from my Realtor to call me so that I can get my keys.
I must say that I've been very lucky with this purchase. I have livedJameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-1679659324261256242013-03-20T09:09:00.003-07:002013-03-20T09:09:29.094-07:00Jolly Old England...just not for me.Hello out there...I'm on vacation in London. I've been here for almost a week, and I go home tomorrow morning. Overall it's been a nice trip. I got to see lots of the things I didn't get to see on my last trip here in 2009. I was sidelined a bit by a brief cold that hit me the morning I left home. By the time I made it to London, the cold was in full effect. My body was sore, my nose was Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-69004878218314491422013-02-13T13:29:00.002-08:002013-02-13T13:29:54.137-08:00MortalityOn Saturday I took my two dogs (cocker spaniels) to the vet for their annual teeth cleaning. Their dog breath has been AWFUL lately! LOL
Being that both of my dogs are considered to be senior citizens, (they're 10 and 8) I followed the vet's recommendation that they do blood work before administering anesthesia. A little bit after I dropped them off, the vet called me about my older dog, Parley.Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-57123801021292206122012-11-24T16:43:00.001-08:002012-11-24T16:43:21.789-08:00Holidays = Family dramaMy sister and I have always joked about how it's not a true holiday until someone cries, and this Thanksgiving lived up to that.
My parents have been staying at my place for the past few weeks dog sitting for me while I've been in China and Philadelphia for work. Since it was so close to Thanksgiving, we decided to celebrate it at my house this year. My sister and her family weren't able to comeJameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-606336618856262499.post-49976689177152114062012-11-11T17:19:00.003-08:002012-11-11T17:19:47.289-08:00God Bless America!I love to travel. I think it's because of my background as an Air Force brat. We moved every three years, and for a total of nine years, we lived outside of the country (three years in Germany, and six years in Japan). I just got back from a week in China for a work trip. I got to spend a few days in Shanghai and then I went to Chongqing. Overall it was a great trip and I got to see some amazing Jameshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06453810842402496943noreply@blogger.com4